Dh and I are required to read three books as part of our homestudy for our adoption. One has really been life changing for me already, Twenty Things Adopted Kids Wish Their Adoptive Parents Knew, by Sherrie Eldridge. Just four pages in and truth hangs heavy on my heart. Four pages in I read, "But the truth is, the very act of adoption is built upon loss." Loss. Not our gain.I know this about adoption but have I thought of it this way before? Have I ever let it sink that deep before? Truth felt deep within the heart doesn't cause me to move away. It causes me to seek out more to find understanding in that truth. I know that dh and I will be given what we need to love and nurture our adoptive daughter. I know that God will provide a way for us to bond with her and she with us. I am thankful that I have been able to step back from my own selfish joy about bringing a daughter into our family through adoption. I am beginning to understand just a sliver of the heart, the loss and the grief of a child through adoption.

"He heals the broken hearted, binding up their wounds." Psalm 147:3