How can it be?

How can it be that Major Cutie would just allow us to be her family? How is it that I am now Mom? Have you gone here, to that place way down deep, where you really think about life and how you are where you are? I believe I am where I am and it's not by accident. It is on purpose. But when I lay in bed and think about our Major Cutie I wonder how it is that she has allowed herself to love another family. She is told that this is your Dad and she fully embraces Dad. And this is Aunt Annie and she fully embraces Aunt Annie. These are your siblings and this is your home. And she just takes it all in. At Christmas this past week she met for the first time her Great Grandma. And without hesistation she runs over to her, sits on her lap and announces, "This is MY Grandma!" I ponder at nite sometimes and try to imagine our biological children, Boo in particular, living without me, or his dad or... his home or country. And I can't see how he could survive, not only that, how would he thrive? And yet here this little girl is, trying her darnest to be fully here. Maybe I am the naive one and Major Cutie is hiding her true thoughts and fears and I just don't know. But part of me is chosing to believe that God has somehow prepared Major Cutie by her personality, her spirit, by her being to move through this major life change and to thrive! That somehow God revealed His plans to her spirit. I know that there will be times, perhaps several, when she will question her life, her reason for being. She will ask why she is not with her birth mom and where are her siblings. And I pray that we will have filled her enough with the love of Jesus that she will allow us to walk through this with her and believe in her core that she is "not an accident. That her birth was not a mistake or a mishap and that her life is not a fluke of nature." But that she would believe this: "When you were born, God said, "Yes!"