Three posts in one day???

OK, I do have a life...I think. This is my third post between 7 am this morning and now...about 4pm EST. I shared an email with my wonderful AGCI listserve friends about my daughter, MC. I thought I'd share it here. I just pasted it from my email...and changed her name to MC for this post...

Today as I was putting MC and Boo to bed I first made my rounds to Boo's bed (OK, OUR bed because that is where he falls asleep!!!) and then I went down the hall to tuck in MC. I heard her talking and thought she was praying. As I walked in she said she was singing a song and wanted to know if I wanted to hear it. OF COURSE I DID!!! Although I wish I could remember it all (she was making it up as she sung to me) some of her lyrics went like this, "I love God and Jesus. I love my family. Lord, Lord, Lord. I love Finnegan (our dog)and all your people." She then said I sing sad songs too. And she was just looking at me and I wondered if I should ask to hear that song too. It was one of those moments where you wanted to encourage your child to express her sadness but not knowing what she would say, or sing in this instance, I wasn't sure I wanted to go there. But I did. I knew I was suppose to. So she sang her sad song in her sing-songy voice, "I love God and Jesus an d where I live. I know MeMe (her 12 yo sister still at home in ET) can never come here because she has to help my mom at home. I want her to be here...." And a tear rolled down her cheek. She did cry outloud as she has in the past. And she just wiped her eyes. I sit here holding back tears for her little heart that carry's such a big weight of sorrow some days. I share this to remind myself and maybe others of the grief our children can hide. The grief they choose to share or choose to keep to themselves.